Grace and I just got back from another long weekend excursion to VA. I decided to go down over the weekend kind of last minute so Carl and I could interview a potential child care provider for Grace. I've found it's very difficult to find people willing to do part time care so when I found this lady I knew we needed to go and see if this could work. She only had two slots available. The short story is that Carl and I both feel comfortable with her. She used to teach pre-school and still teaches a curriculum in her home. She watches four other pre-schoolers. It is a big relief to know that we have safe, reliable care for Grace although I know the first few days won't be easy for Grace or myself. We've been so fortunate to have Mom and Granny Sandy.
Grace and I will be "moving" on May 14th. I start my new job May 28th. It's part time with Brain Injury Services. We will be living in Carl's small apartment for a while. Hopefully the house will sell and we can begin looking for a new home there. S.W. VA is very different from upstate NY. The area we are moving too is a mixture of old rural and explosive new growth (blacksburg). There are areas that remind me of WVA (oh, look someone dumped a washing machine over that ravine) and then there are areas that remind me of super hoyty toyty Pittsford and it's all within the same geographic area.
This entire process has been huge and when it's all over I'm sure I'd have enough material to start another blog. I have definitely been driven to tears on several occasions with this long separation and the frustration of not having our home sell. At times I just don't think I will make it (like yesterday.) Carl and I have been pouring over our scriptures and kneeling in prayer separately and together. And this is what has carried me through another day.
I know we all have trials open and secret that we carry day to day. I think of Sam and Frodo in Mordor. At one very dark moment for the two hobbits Sam looks up to see a break in the soot filled sky and a single star shinning high above. Sam realizes that there is light and goodness beyond darkness. That even if they failed in their mission and middle earth fell into Sauron's hands there was light and goodness beyond his reach. Sometimes I feel like Sam trying to climb Mt. Doom. At times it seems hopeless and everything is pulling against me filling my heart with discouragement and despair. But I have learned (through other difficult trials) that despair and discouragement are not from God. Encouragement to give way to those feelings is not from God. "fear not what man can do, for God shall be with you forever and ever."
Keep your chin up!
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